T, who I've talked about before, got to come home early from Iraq. He's in Texas right now and he'll be home home in a few weeks.
I asked him last night what we were. He said "A couple." I go "Oh yeah? Since when?" He goes "Since I decided to make a commitment to you."
*blink blink*
What do I do with that? I want to be with him - but he has to prove himself to me first. How do I approach that without upsetting him or hurting his feelings? It's not that I don't want him - because I do. But I have to protect myself to a point because I really don't want to get screwed over again.
As screwed up as this sounds, it's almost like I'm more afraid of him following through and doing things right with me than I am afraid of him hurting me again. Because I've never experienced being treated right and it terrifies me a little bit.
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