T, who I've talked about before, got to come home early from Iraq.  He's in Texas right now and he'll be home home in a few weeks. 

I asked him last night what we were.  He said "A couple."  I go "Oh yeah?  Since when?"  He goes "Since I decided to make a commitment to you." 

*blink blink*

What do I do with that?  I want to be with him - but he has to prove himself to me first.  How do I approach that without upsetting him or hurting his feelings?  It's not that I don't want him - because I do.  But I have to protect myself to a point because I really don't want to get screwed over again.

As screwed up as this sounds, it's almost like I'm more afraid of him following through and doing things right with me than I am afraid of him hurting me again.  Because I've never experienced being treated right and it terrifies me a little bit.

Okay, so one annoyance I have that seemingly NEVER goes away are guys that randomly im women to try and get in their pants.  Why do men do this?  It's sad.

I said something today in a conversation with one of my best friends that really shook my world.  I had never really entertained the possibility that people could be soulmates in a friend kind of way. 

I have this friend that I've known for five years.  He and I have kind of went back and forth on the feelings for each other things.  He lives in Massachusetts and I live in Kansas, so that's one strike against us.  I'm a Leo and he's not a big fan of that either, which is another.  I mean, okay, just to get down to brass tacks, so to speak....

J, in a lot of ways, is everything that I would ever want in a guy.  In other ways, there are things about him that drive me nuts.  He's Jewish - nothing against Jews - I have family that is Jewish - but he and I will never see eye to eye on the religion thing.  I'm a Christian.  I don't get caught up in the rules and stuff of religion because I think religion is something that man made up to put their own rules on living a spiritual life.  But, I digress.  This isn't a religious blog.

So anyway - I was talking to J this morning and I said to him, "You're my soulmate, just not in a marriage kind of way."

Does anyone else have people like this in their lives?  J and I will always be close.  We were giggling today thinking about ten or fifteen years down the road when we'd visit each other and let our kids jade each other.  That's totally how it will be, too!

Anyway - I'm just kind of curious what other people think about it and if anyone else has someone in their life like I have J.